Friday, June 12, 2009


So I decided that I needed to make my non-weight related fitness goals instead of just saying I am going to. So here are 7 to start.

1. Whittle my waist - get my waist measurement under 26 inches and my belly measurement under 31 inches. (As of this morning my waist measurement is 26.5 (it was down to 26 but is up a little since the weight gain) and my belly measurement is 33 (it was 31.25).
2. Become more flexible - be able to do side and middle splits.
3. Run a mile in 12 min. or less. (Current best is 13 min.)
4. Do a set of 25 push-ups.
5. Do a set of 25 burpees.
6. Run 2 miles without stopping.
7. Get my body fat percentage under 25%.

Now I should come up with a plan to achieve these goals but I don't really know where to start. I... I know I need to do better than I have been doing. I need to eat better, watch my portions more closely or focus on eating more veggies and less carbs and sweets. I know this. I am just struggling to actually do it. For some reason right now it just feels like it would take so much effort. I'm in a bad head space with this all lately. I don't know why. I do want to do better than I have been doing. I do want to succeed. I just... Well, actually it's not this that has me in a bad head space but unfortunately this is being affected by my bad head space and I think I do know why. I think my unhappiness at work and my stress regarding work and how that bleeds over into life as a whole... That is what has me in a bad head space and it's sapping all my energy, leaving nothing for me to draw on. It has been really hard for me to put forth the energy and effort that I need to, to make this work.

I've done it before. And I can do it again. And I can do it in a more healthy way. And I can do it without obsessing over it. I can be passionate and focused.

I can do better than this.

I need to come up with a plan to do better than this. I am going to read Healthy Tipping Point, a blog recommended to me by my friend, Holly. I am going to try to use that as motivation. I am trying not to let it make me feel like a failure, like it highlights all the ways I am floundering, because in my current head space that is how it feels. I need to focus on the positive. I need to find tools that are going to help me get back on track. Beating myself up, being negative, is not going to help. And in that vein, I really feel like I need to step away from the calorie counting and I need to put away the scale. But at the same time that sounds incredibly hard. I want to see results and I like the scale as a means of measure. But if needs to have less power. There have to be other options. I don't like the desperate desire to see my weight go down that I am feeling right now. And I don't like various unhealthy possibilities that flood my mind under the force of that desperation. This needs to be about health and positivity, not desperation.

I will come up with a plan to achieve my goals. Or at least I will attempt to. I will post about my plans tomorrow.


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